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Gay Paree! Queer Subculture in Interwar Paris

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  Along with the interwar years in Paris came an influx of people who would in modern contexts be deemed as queer. Lesbians and gay men flocked to Paris from America due to their disdain for the “Ugliness of Puritan American Virtue,” – as put by Natalie Clifford Barney – and Parisian men and women relished in their city’s lax penal codes. Many of the young lesbian and gay people in Paris during these years were frequenting cabarets, such as Jean Cocteau and Suzy Solidor, or hosting their own literary salons such as Gertrude Stein and Natalie Clifford Barney. Not only were there many artistic pursuits to be had for these queer artists in Paris, but people of all classes could also join in on the gaiety of Paris in the interwar years, with cabarets as their vehicle. Apart from the previously mentioned cabarets and literary salons, women also had the opportunity to join the workforce during World War I, which offered lesbians an outlet to express themselves with masculinity, as well ...

January books

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"January is the month for dreaming" --Jean Hersey Beasts by Joyce Carol Oates 4/5 Set at a women's college in Massachusetts, obsessive love, poetry, what's not to love?!  She Drives Me Crazy by Kelly Quindlen 3/5 A cute rom-com, but ultimately didn't really hook me, nor did I find the characters and their love story particularly compelling.   The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka 5/5   A man wakes up as a bug and the first thing he does is try to go to work, well yes! Such a great exploration of existentialism as well as familial love.  We Love You, Bunny by Mona Awad 1.5/5 This book could have been so good, but I felt that Awad was making fun of and reducing the Bunnies into caricatures of who they were in book one.    The Passion According to G.H. by Clarice Lispector 5/5 That moment when you kill a cockroach and it sends you into an existential crisis. The Once and Future Sex: Going Medieval on Women's Roles in Society by Eleanor Janega 5/5 The fir...

All work and no play

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Right now my life feels like all work and no play. Maybe that isn't objectively true, maybe that's just how life is, I don't know. What I do know is that it SUCKS! I am trying to shift my mindset about this commuting business, but it really is not happening. Maybe I just need more time to get used to it, that's probably the answer, but two weeks in and I want to drop out. I'm thinking I was being a real idiot when I made my schedule, like what was I thinking?  It feels like everything is homework homework homework. Drive drive drive. And I want to have fun!!! I want to do fun things and wear cute outfits and read books and live my life without school and being broke looming over me. Even when I am doing something fun the stress is still at the back of my mind. I see other people's lives and I am jealous of the carefree fun times they have because they don't go to school. Do I really want to go into academia if this is how I'm feeling during UNDERGRAD?  I...

"whimsy" is the new buzzword don't piss me off

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 Maybe this is niche... I have no way of knowing. Basically I am a youtube addict and so I am scrolling my curated youtube homepage for many hours of the day. What I am finding on my youtube homepage is sinister... It seems that the word "whimsy" is becoming a new buzzword for titles, things like "my whimsy bedroom makeover" and "making my life more whimsy in 2026." These titles have been getting to me for one reason and one reason only. THE WORD YOU ARE LOOKING FOR IS "WHIMSICAL"  It's not actually only one reason but they feed into each other so it kind of is. First of all, the word you are looking for is "whimsical" not "whimsy" your whimsical bedroom makeover and your whimsical 2026 life. Second of all, these people do not even get the essence of the word, your plain white walls with one poster on them are not whimsical. Doing pilates as a new years resolution is not whimsical. Don't piss me off!!!!!!!!!! Anyway. 

My book wishlist

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                                                                      The Complete Stories of Clarice Lispector                                                                       The Second Sex by Simone De Beauvoir                                                                   Promising Young Women by Suzanne Scanlon                                             ...

Becoming Kafka pilled and my first short story

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 I fear I am becoming Kafka pilled... I really loved The Metamorphosis  and now I fear I must read all of his work. There's just something about a dude waking up as a giant bug that really gets me. Weird girl lit-fic? More like weird girl bug book. Also need to be like super prepared for the Kafka museum obviously, and as much as I still do want to read philosophy books there's just something about exploring existentialism through fiction that I'm loving. I also feel STUPID as I'm trying to read Clarice Lispector, so reading The Metamorphosis in a few hours was a win for me intellectually.  Yesterday I published on the blog my first short story, murderous sapphic horror story titled "Carrion" as in, yes, roadkill. I originally started writing this sophomore fall as a submission for the UNG horror writing contest, but I never ended up actually finishing it then. It's quite short, but the beauty of this story's structure though, is that I can always add ...

Carrion

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  None of her other friends called her Birdie, but there was a glint in her eye whenever Louisa did, so she never called her anything else. There was something beautiful and sacred in that. It was just theirs, hers and Birdie’s. There was nothing quite like an in-joke, Louisa thought. It felt like digging her fingers into the flesh of an orange in search of fruit. It felt like being swallowed up in waves and delicious seafoam as she screamed silently for help. There was something intoxicating about it, about her Birdie. It wasn’t as if she could say any of this to Birdie, she had to play it cool or else Birdie would fly away. No, no, it was best to keep it all to herself, though it yearned ever so much to burst from her, like the juice and seeds from a sickly sweet tomato as you bit into it. And she wanted to bite into it, into everything Birdie had to offer. Into every bit she could get.  They didn’t meet until Louisa’s third year at Bennington, though in hindsight, that was...

Current reads, new interests, mindset shift

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 I am currently reading two books that could not be more different, yet simultaneously they are quite similar in many ways.  The Metamorphosis  by Franz Kafka and We Love You, Bunny  by Mona Awad. Let's begin with the latter. I loved Bunny, and I love some of her other works as well, but We Love You, Bunny is not very good. I am almost done with it, and so far like, nothing has happened, I don't know. It feels like a cash-grab sequel/prequel/whatever it is and I am not enjoying it. But like it was $30 so I have to finish it. The Metamorphosis  on the other hand is great. I am reading it because I wanted to read some of Kafka's work before going to Prague -- where I will visit the Kafka museum -- and I am really enjoying it so far. Both books have themes of metamorphosis while one is focused more on creation and the other is more existentialist.  Speaking of existentialism, I am really wanting to get into philosophy. I was supposed to be getting a philosophy...